new year, new hair.

February 28, 2016 Rebekah E. Goodall 1 Comments


❥ I'm the sort of person who likes to put labels on myself. Such like introvert, ginger, and YouTuber.

❥ I'm the sort of person who isn't afraid to chop off her own hair, either.

❥ I'm the sort of person who likes a have measurable success.

❥ The sort of person who doesn't want to be wrong.

❥ I'm the sort of person who likes to be clever and have a well-versed vocabulary.

❥ I'm the sort of person who gets very involved in fiction. Likes having control and hates being told what to do. Doesn't like doing things out of order, and often needs their own space. Who enjoys sharing their knowledge, and performing in front of an audience. Who is creative but is bored to madness by poetry. Really, it makes me want to punch people in the face.

❥ I'm the sort of person who wants to work things out and solve problems.

❥ I'm the sort of person who is very sensitive. And who takes on board what everybody else thinks.

❥ I'm the sort of person who can quickly get sucked into what everybody else is doing and believes, just because everybody else is very enthusiastic about it. But guess what?? Anything can be popular or fashionable if any number of people like it.

❥ I know that it's already February but I have finally decided on my new years resolution. This is something that I need to learn in part of growing up. This is something that will be really necessary in this particular year while going into my second year of a Bachelor of Contemporary music, majoring in Songwriting.

I am going to stop caring about other people's opinions.

❥ I'm not going to care about what my friends think. I'm not going to care about what my boyfriend thinks. I'm not going to care about what my family thinks. I'm not going to care about what you think. I'm not going to care about what Zoella thinks.

❥ It doesn't matter what I have promised in the past, I am going to do or not do what makes me happy.

❥ It doesn't matter what I am good at or what I have tried to do in the past.

❥ It doesn't matter what could happen in the future; I DON'T CARE!

❥ I don't want to be considered selfish, but nobody else is living this life except me. And nobody should ever get to, this is MY life.

❥ I don't care what is mainstream or indie, popular or small. I am going to love what I love and I am going to hate what I hate.

❥ It doesn't matter what the future holds because worrying about won't fix promlems or make me happy or get my ass into heaven.

I'm already going there, I can't even change that if I wanted to.

❥ Whether it's fear or disinterest that makes me not keep up with the news, I don't blimmin' have to if I don't want to.

❥ Whether it's cliche or not I say that I'm in a time of self-descovery.

❥ Whether it's not the norm in this country or not I can be a Christian.

❥ Whether it's overdone or original, I can make any video for my YouTube channel I like.

❥ Whether it's smart or unproductive, I can procrastinate in doing my assignments.

❥ Whether it's a pipe dream or realistic, I love the idea of being successful as a Singer/Songwriter.

❥ Whether it's impossible or achievable, I want an audience who interacts with me.

Do you get the picture world? This is me telling you to suck it.

I am who I am. You can't actually change that. I can't change that. And I choose my opinions over yours. I choose what I want over what anybody else thinks.


And my opinion is that I like the image above a lot, I'm very clever with visual design stuff. And I love my blog, I've done a great job with the redesign and I'm very smart to have worked it all out so well.

xxoBeka

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Psychology

Suffering from empathy.

February 24, 2016 Rebekah E. Goodall 2 Comments


Sometimes I wish I couldn't feel.

The amount of things that are a big deal to me is more than what other people have.

This means I can't be friends with intense people.

It drains me.

The human heart is very powerful, it can create good, and it can create bad.

I know the difference when I am near a person, and if it's bad I don't feel comfortable.

Being aware of my own sensitivity is something I have had to learn.

Being empathetic means that you take on whatever another person is feeling.

Sometimes you won't even know you are doing it.

I have a certain friend who is often very intense to be around.

And that friendship, for my own health, may have very well come to a close.

She is like a fairy; those creatures are so small they can only feel one emotion at a time.

Only excitement. Or Pain.

Only contentment. Or want to be helpful.

It drives me nuts.

Because I can't be around here without feeling what she is putting out into the world.

There is already enough pain and confusion in the world.

I have enough of my own anxieties.

I just wanted to write this to ask you are omitting emotions onto other people who do not need your pain?

Or are you a highly empathetic person taking on other people's emotions without giving permission.

There is a very well-known saying that I am referring to: No one can make you feel inferior without your permission.

But I disagree with this statement. What if you never knew that you have your door open to all of the feelings of the people around you?

This is part of growing up; Self-awareness.

You need to know what you are feeling and why you are feeling it.

I was told after a recent episode with my friend, the fairy, to not let her ruin my day.

Some of us do not have that choice.

This has us made to believe that we are weak if we do let others have an effect on us.

But I promise there is nothing wrong with you if your own heart is hurt by the words and actions and emotions of others.

That is only something to look after. Give yourself grace. You are not wrong to feel.

But about that open door; that empathy that makes you feel other people's emotions...

In the right environment and in the right relationships it helps you to be a great friend.

It could one day help you to be an amazing mother.

You are a true caregiver.

But you should maybe try to limit how many cares you give out. You shouldn't give them to the wrong people.

And you need to save some for yourself.





I hope this has been informative, for both highly empathetic persons, and for others who are in close relationships with empathy-driven people - who you love, but sometimes don't understand.

If you want to talk more about any of this I would be glad to. Comment below or email: bekaellenmusic@gmail.com

xxoBeka



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my first week back.

February 22, 2016 Rebekah E. Goodall 0 Comments


Hello and Welcome!! To my sad and fantastic life, where inside I feel like a loser and I am going to write all about it so I can laugh about it. So read on and you can laugh with me too. These are some of the things that went through my head during my first week back at polytech for the year which is otherwise known as mix-up week with a flash mob and all years of the degree performing together in the Beatles themed, Friday concert. For me that was soloing in 'Yesterday' and I backed for 'Hey Jude.'

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MONDAY


I didn't have to show up until 1 so I was able to blog around, and make a new friend before I left. Said friend is natashaellens.com And her excepting my request gave me lots of good feels.
Later: I talked to the class and made jokes and afterwards I was a bit shaken up. that's what I get for trying to be funny.
Then: cried over Rodriguez the bear because I don't want to live with someone who has different interests, I won't be understood or loved by them.
"Let's just hope that tomorrow sound better."

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TUESDAY


"I don't want a first year saxophonist telling me how to learn my vocal part. Seriously I should know my own methods by now".

"Did I just flirt with her? If she is she a lesbian I did. Is she gay?"

"I like Hollie's coat."

"I'm the one trying to look like a fashion blogger, but instead I'm just bleeding."


"I wore myrainy day outfit on a sunny day, while yesterday it was raining. Why did I ever think this town was going to be kind to me?"

"Levi, seriously how could you not have noticed that my hair is shorter? If I had a bob before, I would be bald!"

"Why don't I just keep my blog for fun things and my YouTube channel for music, like it was always meant to be. And then, screw editing, cause l'm really sick of it."

"I could go home and watch the Duff."

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WEDNESDAY


"My braclet is very jangly and pretty, but is that really the style I want to be going for?"

"Dang it, I didn't watch the Duff yesterday"

"Yay, I get to take Levi's socks off for him."


"Runescape is really not a typical interest of a girly blogger, is it? well I don't even play anymore, do I."

"Yay, Levi and I are going to the beach to swim with and be eaten by sharks."


"Thank God, we went to the river instead. The local beach here is rough and just not nice - I should know I spent christmas in Auckland. Beaches there aren't scary."


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THURSDAY


"Okay it's the day of the flash mob. I wonder if anyone is going to be surprised, considering we do this every year."

"Wow, 6 RTs for my insta pic, and heaps of likes. Alright so actually using my instagram makes a huge difference."

"Ow, my nails look good."

"If the entire music department were not backing me up right now I would sound like I'm just shouting. This is not the right way to sing but what choice do I have, no one will hear me."


"I suppose scabs are like a natural bandaid. But, how in the world did my other ankle get sore?"


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FRIDAY


"Hit the kerb, and then when I get out of the car drop my bag strait into the road. This is a great start to the day."

"I should have my own fabric grocery bags; I'm old now so I should care about the planet. A plastic bag is going to break anyway with 3 leters of juice in it."

While on stage: "Did I just sing now it's hooking like they're here to stay? Seriously, my troubles are hooking!!"

"Come on Cristina, sway with me! I want to sway so you should sway too."

"Oh my gosh, this stupid phone is driving me crazy!! I'm getting a new one."


"Hey, didn't I post last week that I am not going to be overwhelmed by other people's opinions?! Then I am not going to feel bad for spending money or nor enough money, nor feel wrong for getting the Samsung Galaxy J5. I't a very sexy phone so Levi just zip it."

***

Overall I think I had the best O-week I could have. I am excited to have a new phone for use of my instagram at least so while we're at it I would love if you followed me; @BekaEllenMusic

Tell me about your week. or the one ahead. I hope it's a good one. What lessons have you learned? I learned to not wear uncomfortable heals. Ever.

I am still recovering.

I can't wait to hear from you.

xxoBeka





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Old Content

10 Tips for Starting a Blog.

February 20, 2016 Rebekah E. Goodall 1 Comments


Hello everyone new to the ways of blogging, like myself currently. I thought that while I am going through a clean up and redesign of my blog I would note the things that I noticed are really important to put your efforts towards when making your blog into a special place to call home. So here are ten blogging tips for beginners.


1. MAKE FRIENDS
This is what I have recently discovered to be the most important part of blogging. The internet is a world where I don't have to feel judged for being materialistic. Where I get to be completely myself and people who aren't interested are not likely to look at my blog at all. That means it is the best people, and the people who have similar interests and hobbies are right here on Blogger St.
Blogging is almost like a cheat for having pen-pals because you don't have to wait for your letter to reach them and then for a reply. Get out there and look for other bloggers to make friends with, read and leave comments for, because it makes it so much more enjoyable when you can share it with others. By the way, I am one of those people! I would love to be your friend and share this experience, journey, hobby, job, non-stop party...whatever you want to call it, with you.

2. EVERY POST MUST HAVE A PHOTO
This is especially important if your blog has 'featured' posts on your home page or 'related' posts after each post. If there is no associated image your website will show nothing, or a placeholder image, see displayed here.
This is not good, you need an attractive image that will suggest to your readers what the post is about.
I have a folder of generic and styled photographs of flowers, buildings and interestingly textured surfaces that I have taken over time, stored on my computer. Have a look through your own Photo Library and see if you have anything like that and clean up any old posts that have been left without a picture.
There are also many websites with great stock photographs, which very helpful if you are not confident taking your own.

Here is my free photo pack perfect for your lifestyle posts.

3. FIX YOUR SPELLING
It is simply nice to be able to read through a post without poor grammar being a distraction or preventing you from understanding the text. Do not leave grammar errors in your beautiful and thought out blog posts. I promise to you; people notice and typos will be called out. Double check your spelling and the flow of your writing. I know people don't like being told they are wrong and I too can be tempted to hit publish early but you'll kick yourself, especially if the title that has an error.

A suggestion for checking grammar - and this applies to any document you write - Utilise the speech function on your computer. On a mac this is Edit> Speach> Start Speaking. It will read your post for you, allowing you to really hear how your writing voice flows and how others will read it.





4. BIRD'S EYE VIEW
For some reason photos that are taken from birds eye view are immediately more interesting to look at than perspective view, in which you don't know what the focus point of the image is. This is true for blog photos as well as for Instagram. Try it and see that it does make a huge difference. I know it's hard to sometimes find the right angle, especially for showing cosmetics in their best light, and this one is always a safe option. Plus you don't have to put the rest of your house in the picture when it's messy.
Laying everything out with purpose is where the work is, and actually taking the shot is much easier. I'm not saying there's anything wrong with other angles, they can all have a place in the blogging world, but if you haven't tried bird's eye view before then I encourage you to should give it a go.

5. SCHEDUALING
I live in New Zealand. This is a problem if I want a new post to be seen by the world's more enthusiastic blog readers,who I assume are in the UK. There happens to be a particular time of day, when more people are online. This peak social network time is at mid-day, so you want to pick this time to post. However you may need to consider if you have a different midday to most of your audience. This also applies to Twitter, Facebook and other social networking sites you might use, aside from new posts on your blog. Have a look at the statistics, because there are better times for different responses, such as comments or shares or likes. People will be in a different social media mood depending on the time of day.

6. BLOGLOVIN'
It is nice to know that people want to come back and read your future posts and articles but the way people read your content can differ depending on how often they remember to go to your website, if at all. One way to make it easy for them is to sign up your blog to share an RSS feed on bloglovin' where readers can read new posts from all the bloggers they follow in one place. 
You can display a follow button on your website so that when people log into their blog feed your posts will be there for them, and the app will send notifications when you have published something new.

7. TWITTER RETWEET ACCOUNTS
When you upload a new post you want people to come read it, and a great way to get more people to see it is through twitter. What some wonderful people are out there doing is retweeting all of your new posts and blogging news. Here is my list of twitter accounts designed for helping you get your blog to other creative and fabulous blog lovers. Simply mention or use their hashtag and they will send it around to their own tens of thousands of followers.

8. QUALITY OVER QUANTITY
As someone who wants their blog to do well, I know there are a lot of expectations you can have of yourself. It doesn't make it fun if you worry about your work effort and try to be perfect. Just do what you can and you don't have to post every day, that might just that lead to undeveloped ideas being published which you will want to delete later. Make your blog something you are proud of, and give your articles some care. Start by including a good mixture of research and personal opinion.

9. THE BLOGGER PROGRAM
When you want to start reaching out to PR companies for sponsored content and other partnerships, those connections will be easier than ever with forums such as The Blogger Program. All you have to do is sign up and the available deals are right there for you to look through and apply for. Your chances of getting a deal often depend on how many readers you have, but often your exsiting influence doesn't have to be very high. If you are just starting out and you want to get a better feel for writing regularly, or to have more followers, you can very well wait until you think you and your blog are ready for sponsored content.

10. WRITE ABOUT WHAT YOU CARE ABOUT

Your blog is your own corner of the internet. So why would you make it about fashion and makeup if you don't care about fashion or makeup? Yes, many bloggers have done well with those topics but it isn't the only thing in the world worth focusing you attention on. You don't have to do something just because everybody else is doing it. You should blog about what makes you excited and what you would want to learn more about. Your readers will see that passion and that is why they will want more. Make sure that what you post about for is for YOU.


For more advice and hacks for blogging well check out the full convenient list of posts on this website here.

xxoBeka

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Prayer

A Prayer about Identity

February 16, 2016 Rebekah E. Goodall 2 Comments


Bless these fingers and these eyes
Bless them that they know new life
Give me strength to hold on tight
I know I need your hand, your might.

Give me hope even through dark
Like a child I wish and ask
As if I know what's right for me
But your design reveals to see,

That with your perfect time and Grace
You care with me in all I face
There is no answer you don't know
No mountain task, no knot of bow

So bless these fingers, bless my eyes
Take me Jesus, be my guide.



On Saturday someone told me that I cannot find who I am in what I do, I should do what it is that I love, because of who I am. My desires are not wrong, they are part of being made in God's image. Blogging, beauty, fashion, design, friendship, teaching, feeling and dreaming is all tied into who I am and I must nurture those things, not put them away in a box, not be ashamed of them.

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Old Content

Free Blogging & YouTube Resources.

February 15, 2016 Rebekah E. Goodall 2 Comments



Let me just tell you I took it too far when I first started taking my own YouTube channel seriously. As a first time YouTuber or Blogger it can be really overwhelming how much you think there might be to do to get started in forming your style and brand that will become what everyone will know you as. There's logos and banners to design, templates and layouts to organise, playlists and collections to plan, music to find, thumbnails to create, photos to take, videos to film, writing and editing to find time for.

Even years into in we sometimes need to step back and take a deep breath to remember that we are in this for the fun of it too. So here I have put together a list of places to find inspiration and tools for your own creative pursuits. You may not have even thought of using these before so look through and you might find something new to be excited to use and play around with.


❥ MUSIC
YouTube Audio Library - Just go to your channel> Video manager> Create. There's a huge selection of free music for all kinds of videos.

NoCopyrightSounds - It's a YouTube channel full of great music that is there for you to download and use in any way you want. Someone has taken advantage of this and simply reuploaded it as nightcore. It's royalty free, which is something you have to look out for if you want to use your videos for monetization.

incompetech.com/music/royalty-free

purple-planet.com




❥ PICTURES
A Picture paints a thousand words. Sometimes they also make my heart sink with longing and how beautiful they are. There is a number of websites from which you can buy images, or pay for membership to download whenever you need, but it's nice when you can use them for free. Seriously there are a lot of pictures on these sites that I would die for.

pixabay.com

pcwallart.com

publicdomainarchive.com



❥ PHOTO EDITING and THUMBNAILS
Ever heard of PicMonkey.Com? If you have wondered how popular YouTubers create such fun and creative thumbnails for their videos - you know the picture you click on to get to the video, or the picture you avoid because it doesn't look interesting. Well almost all of those were made on PicMonkey. It's fun, it's free, it's easy. And you can head to Gabrielle Marie's YouTube channel to get some examples to try out.

You can also use Pixlr.com for more detailed editing. It's a basic version of PhotoShop and it's free.

Using overlays is a simple way to make photos look extra special. This can be done for a photo or for film. See example my amazing example that I spent way too long making:


❥ FONTS
DaFont.Com

1001FreeFonts.com

kevinandamanda.com/fonts/


❥ TITLE & LOGO ANIMATIONS
KeyNote / PowerPoint - Head over to Gabrielle Marie's YouTube channel and she will show you how to make animated titles that are not available in your basic title selections of iMovie of MovieMaker.

❥ GREENSCREEN & VIDEO OVERLAYS
Take a look at these light leaks and see what you could do with them.
Explosions and the like, you can find on youtube such as this one.
Film Transitions you can also find from Gabrielle Marie.


❥ SOUND EFFECTS
freesound.org

soundbible.com

grsites.com


❥ BLOG TEMPLATES
The catch with these is if you want it to be fully customizable after you've installed a template, then they will have a cost for you. But otherwise, it's fun to just look through and see what ideas you might like. Really if you love designing things like I do, the paid ones are all so gorgeous. Remember though that they sell the ideas to you with their photos in place, but you are going to have to use your own.

mybloggerthemes.com

gooyaabitemplates.com

btemplates.com

themexpose.com


❥ SOCIAL MEDIA WIDGET CODES
To add these to your blog simply go to Layout> Add Gadget> HTML / JavaScript, and paste the code that you obtained from these websites into the box.

- instagram
snapwidget.com or websta.me/tools

- Facebook
There is what is available through blogger gadgets. You probably want something smaller than the one blogger provides so if you find a code for one like this then please let me know so I can share it :)


- Twitter
For a Twitter feed box, you don't have to look any further than the resources within Twitter itself. Click Here to see step by step what to do.

❥SOCIAL VECTOR ICONS
Some are interactive, in that they change colour when you draw the mouse over them, but otherwise, all you need is an image to be linked to your profiles. My personal favourite style is watercolour icons. These images can be used in videos too, don't forget.

flaticon.com

iconfinder.com/social-media-icons

vandelaydesign.com/free-social-media-icons/

If you can't find any that are just right or if the set you love the look of doesn't include an important icon you need, don't be afraid to make them yourself. You know how now so there are no excuses.


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If there's anything else you're looking for then please don't leave without telling me so I can add it for the next person.




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Psychology

15 Signs of a Woman's Body Language & What They Mean

February 13, 2016 Rebekah E. Goodall 0 Comments


Some of these are already proven body language signs and some of these I found by observing my own behaviour. Sometimes I'm the only one to notice but if you look closely you'll see...

#1. Suddenly shaking my head without apparent reason, or chomping down my jaw - this happens after having a bad idea or memory of making mistakes and feeling convicted or embarrassed and I've decided it was a very bad idea.

#2. When hungry I often find myself chewing on the inside of my mouth.

#3. Holding my hair over my mouth is to prevent talking before I think of what I should actually say.

#4. Hands rubbing face like a child when they're tired - means tired or sometimes comfortably warm but mostly needing sleep.

#5. Gripping my hair like it's a rope happens when I'm cold.

#6. Eyebrows quickly raised individually, to keep eyes open because I'm so tired. It happens most while driving or reading in bed before knocking off.

#7. Right eyebrow raised and sits for a second means that what I'm seeing or what we're talking about is inappropriate and I'm feeling uncomfortable. In the same situation, I sometimes shiver when it's not even cold.

#8. Hands touching face to almost cover mouth means that I'm unsure. Touching your face is usually a tell that someone is lying but I don't often like to lie, and I'm terrible at it. For me having my hand in the way is to stop myself saying something too soon, without being sure.

#9. Hands running through each other is a cold thing or because I'm anxious/nervous/uncomfortable. Breathing will also be heavier so it's not hard to tell.

#10. The flex - When your back slightly stretches while your arms go in the air or hands move back behind the neck or crossed forearms sit on top of your head. This is something that happens in a conversation or while watching something I'm interested in, and it says I'm open to the current suggestion or topic and that I want to see how it goes.

#11. Scuffing my feet while I walk happens when I'm in a happy mood and thinking of lovely things like sweetly kissing my boyfriend.  It's the good, excited, scared, wondering feelings of loveishness.

#12. While reading a book lying on my bed, I find that I also sometimes scrunch my toes, bringing my big toe back and forth, when I'm content and happy. Obviously, this wouldn't happen while reading a horrible part of a book, but I've recently found that if I've got bare feet I will do it even while standing when excited.

#13. *DEEP BREATH - SIGH* When I let go of a deep breath of air it often takes something else with it. It's letting go of something that was troubling, unrealistic or out of good timing i.e. was going to argue but I decided not to. My boyfriend, Levi knows this and often asks what I was thinking about after I sigh- but the trouble is, I'll usually have forgotten. It's something that only women do, apparently.

#14. Hands on hips is for when I'm waiting. I have done all I can myself and answers must now come from someone else. 'I don't know - take over please.'

#15 Being reckless and/or throwing things happens when I don't care much about anything or I'm feeling hurt i.e. film festival flyers ending up tossed all over the road. It is a sad time and either it needs to be waited out and give some time to be frustrated or things need to be said sooner to fix it.

So do you do any of these things too? Do the women around you? And what other things have you noticed about yourself while attempting to grow up? Tell me below in the comments :)

xxoBeka

single crêpe recipe.

February 12, 2016 Rebekah E. Goodall 3 Comments


The crêpes that are made on the streets of Europe are the best.

I though have managed to work out the perfect recipe for a single crêpe to give you more excuses to make one at home.

All you need is 1 egg, 1/4 cup flour, 1/4 cup milk and a pinch of salt.

Mix into a very wet batter and pour into a big hot pan with some butter. Cook both sides for 90seconds each side.

When it's almost done cooking add your choice of topping/filling over it while it's still in the pan.

The classic options; Sugar and Lemon, Maple Syrup, Ice-Cream, Whipped Cream, Nutella, Strawberries, banana, and other fruit toppings.

Tell me in the comments, what is your favourite topping?

Then fold the crêpe with your filling twice over to shape it like a pro and enjoy.

xxoBeka




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Micro Mac 'n' Cheese

February 01, 2016 Rebekah E. Goodall 0 Comments


This is a recipe I have always wanted a copy of after staying at Grandma's place. She always made it the best and to this day, even though I'm the one who makes it now, she still is. The source in this twist of mac 'n' cheese is quite think and it's an extra treat to be able to scrape the oily remains from the plate.
Have a go at making this comfort food and you won't want to go back to your old method for a while.

How to make it:

3L Casserole Dish - preferably glass but just remember this is going in the microwave.
100gm Butter - Yum, Grease!
2 cups Macaroni - But please, I mean the medium size. You can get mini ones but they don't do well at going soft.
1 teaspoon Garlic Salt - I know right, there's all types of salts these days.
3 cups Boiling water - So go fill up the kettle. Overly soft pasta is better than hard; believe me.

Put it all together and set the microwave on high for 12-15 minutes. If the water is all absorbed before 15min then you might want to add more from your kettle. Try a bit to see.

Papa's tasting trick: When testing boiled food that is too hot, run it under cold water.

    While the macaroni is cooking
3 cups Grated Cheese - any kind you like taste, Edam, Colby or a mixture
3 Tablespoons Flour - white is best and choosing whole meal won't make this dish any healthier.

Mix the cheese into the macaroni and melt back in microwave for 2 more minutes.

Garnish with a generous amount of Parsley. If you like parsley then here's a chance to go wild; it won't spoil it, I promise.

Serve with your dish of choice, be it bowl, plate or a mix of both and indulge.

Click here if you want me to make it with you or to make sure you didn't miss anything.

xxoBeka