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Six Months into 2014

June 26, 2014 Beka Ellen 1 Comments


A year isn't a long time at all.

❤ At the beginning of 2014 what I set out to achieve was simply to not annoy my parents while I'm living at home, the year after my High School graduation.

❤ I think I have failed. That's a nice way to put it.

❤ In all seriousness though I organised a concert, Released an Acoustic EP, Performed at other events, Wrote many more songs and I'm simply getting better as I go, Produced and Released a Live EP, Had my song that was written for divergent reach 1500 views on YouTube, Got over 200 twitter followers, And most importantly I was accepted to study at the school I was hoping to go to.

❤ But I am missing out the truth when I only mention all that. If I'm honest I can't remember spending any time with my friends, those followers don't respond to anything I say, My Facebook page gets no activity from the 248 people that like it and I think my recording sounds like shit. As do other people because honestly only 2 people have downloaded my new Ep. Also 12 people were at that concert and I'm currently suffering from Seasonal Affective Disorder, where everything is just shit and life is boring because I'm not getting enough vitamin D because It's winter. Also fifteen hundred views is nothing. Not when I've spent a lot of time getting to know the YouTube world and I have an average of 10 on my other videos.

❤ I'm sorry to complain but this is how I'm feeling and this is what my life looks like. I don't lie and there's no point because no ones listening to what I say anyway. I mean, tell me If you are reading this post with a comment, please. I know the only page views come from myself.

❤ I have God. That's supposed to mean something. I don't know what because if he was to grant all my dreams it will still mean waiting a hundred years before anyone pays any real attention to my music. 

❤ In less than 2 weeks I'm flying to Singapore then London, Scotland then France, Germany, Switzerland, Venice and Italy. I am going to enjoy the sun and the heat and I am going to be happy. I am going to be warm and I am going to love music again.

❤ xoBeka

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1 comment:

  1. Hey a little bit of the blues is good. If you think your amazing all the time then you can't get better and see where to improve.
    Chill have a lovely holiday. Those life experiences are what brings the inspiration for great works.

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